The First and Last Freedom by Jiddu Krishnamurtiby Parker on TwosJoy does not come through suppression, through control or indulgence. You may indulge but there is bitterness at the endHappiness does not come through effort, nor joy through control and suppression; and still all our life is a series of suppression’s, a series of controls, a series of regretful indulgencesWe are constantly struggling to avoid facing what is, or we are trying to get away from it or to transform or modify what is. A man who is truly content is the man who understands what is, gives the right significance to what is. That is true contentment; it is not concerned with having few or many possessions but with the understanding of the whole significance of what is; and that can only come when you recognize what is, when you are aware of it, not when you are trying to modify it or change itDistraction, which is effort, must exist so long as psychologically I wish to transform what is into something it is notYou create when there is no effort, when you are completely open, when on all levels you are in complete communication, completely integratedI am this, and I want to become that; I am not that, and I must become that. In becoming “that,” there is strife, there is battle, conflict, struggle. In this struggle we are concerned inevitably with fulfillment through the gaining of an end; we seek self fulfillment in an object, in a person, in an idea, and that demands constant battle, struggle, the effort to become, to fulfill.Effort exists only so long as we are trying to avoid that inward loneliness, emptiness, but when we look at it, observe it, when we accept what is without avoidance, we will find there comes a state of being in which all strife ceases. That state of being is creativeness and it is not the result of strifeIt is only if you are aware of inward insufficiency and live with it without escape, accepting it wholly, that you will discover an extraordinary tranquility, which is not put together, made up, but a tranquility which comes with understanding of what is