Focus on the present. You can't do anything about the past and the future may not happen. Most of our worries don't happen so just focus on the present and live in it and do what you can to create the future. You can create the future by focusing on the present. No such thing as being overwhelmed. You have a lack of focus and decisions. Always do your best and you have nothing to worry about. Just do what you can. Just because you have a ton to do doesn’t mean you are capable of more. You have always been capable. Eat vegetables. Nothing matters. Teach others. Utility. In the end, the most important thing is that you love yourself and are doing what you believe is right and what you love and find meaningful. If that is helping others, do that. If that is spreading love, do that. If that is being the most popular person, do that. Do what makes you happy. And just focus on what you can do at the present moment. Occasionally think about the end goal, where you want to be, what you want to be doing so that you can figure out the moment to moment actions you need to take to get there, but once you know where you want to go, focus on the present moment and doing your best then. That is what you have control over. Don't waste your time worrying about the past or future when all you can do is be present and take action right now. Time. We only have so much. Made up. Spend it how we want doing what we want. Or not. There is no I wish... you can only control change and take action in this current moment and what you do moving forward. trick you body and mind by telling it what to think. do what you want but don't test the system too much. Or do. how do you know what to do at every moment? You don't. You just trust and have faith that it is all going to work together as it should. One step at a time. That's all you focus on. If you are consistent you will make it there eventually. You can street from time to time But momentum makes it easier. The mind makes it out to be harder than it will be. That is its job to protect you. But it is never as bad as it seems. You will also grow from the challenges and figure out the strength that you have. Keep going and challenge yourself. Learning is interesting. It does you no good to worry about something that you do know. Focus on the present and what you are learning in the here and now, try to learn that, because that is the best you can do. You will also focus and retain more. I have so much time. An entire life. to do everything I want. Just take it a day at a time, focus on the present moment, and do what you can and you will reach your goals faster. If you are constantly thinking about the future and where you want to be, you will not be able to get to where you want to go as fast. Right now. The present moment is all that matters. Don't ask what am I supposed to be doing. It is why and what am I supposed to be learning. Carry yourself like you believe in yourself. i don’t want to do anything while I’m on vacation but workout, eat, sleep, and read, maybe a little brainstorming, walk, swim. Not too much though. Get out of your body. Let it be. Just live. Be an outside force of good on everything. take time to decompress. To slow down and relax. To just be and to stop doing. You need the rest. listen to your body and give it what it needs, food, rest, love, care. Eliminate what hurts it, immobility, junk food, restlessness. stay in the game to help people play better. So much we need to learn for ourselves but wisdom comes with age. If we stop helping and interacting then all of our Gaines wisdom is wasted. We must stay in the game to help others play better themselves. Do you get wise by thinking?. people are so extremely lazy. have your life driven by curiosity. Live in the moment and have total control and focus on the right now. Don’t make your life harder than it has to. do things that help you get to where you want to be. You’re totally okay in the present moment. Don’t hurt yourself. Got to see my future. Very bright. Very awesome. Just keep doing what I’m doing. Was thinking about all my attributes. 6’. dark brown wife. Janet. golf course is real. 3 hole. up I’ve mountains. in the. im everything I hoped I’d be. i just have to believe.. Very wealthy off trustwork. Working on twos. Excited to work on converting to a new component library at Trustwork. Why do I hate myself?. Why do I do things that make me hate myself?. Why can't I make space and relax? Be real? Be me?. Why do I spend so much time thinking of myself and not others?. Why can't I be more present, aware?. Acceptance of myself and my current position. Doesn't mean I can't change, but accept who I am, what I do, what I've done. Laugh, at yourself, at others, at the situation, at life. Things aren't meant to be taken so seriously. No one knows what they are doing. Relax and enjoy. Nothing is good or bad, it just is. Money === value. Money === freedom. Value === freedom?. I want to build and create, from a place of love and truth. I need so much less than I think. If I am able to stay focused, stay in the struggle, embrace it, listen to my body, listen to my soul, everything will end up perfect. Timing is perfect. I am on the up. Life is a gift. love yourself. It is most important. It is okay to not love yourself because you know you do things that you feel are wrong but you should use that feeling to not do those things so you can get back to fully loving yourself. And then you can create from a place of love for yourself and the world. It is also based on what you know. If I didn’t know about health, I probably wouldn’t factor it into me loving myself. The fact is I do know about it and I still don’t take the actions to be able to love myself and my body. Something to work on. i also know I have to leave. I need to talk to my parents and make sure it is okay if I come live with them until I figure more out, but I believe that would be so wonderful. I have money. I can make it work. I have the drive. I have the mind. I have the skill. I can make magic happen for the world. don’t let what other people think about you stop you from loving yourself. Listen to them and consider what they have to say but you know yourself and what you want and feel more than they do. Continue to try to block out the ego and listen to momma but everything will be okay. Natural is a thing and you can listen and live it. I think I would also my kids to create for the world. I would want them to work hard and not waste away but who is to say what someone should do and what would make them happy. It’s an incredible life we live. what makes you feel alive? We are supposed to be living correct? Working at a job where my ideas aren’t fully considered but I’m supposed to spend my whole life on it kills me. Someone else could be doing it. I have the gift of life and I want to make the most of it for myself and for others. trustwork doesnt allow me to create with the ideas I come up with. Twos and muse do. I think I’ll be okay. I can always find a job. we all die anyways. The world isn’t perfect. Think of all the health problems and people dying from heart attacks and shit. Maybe what we are doing isn’t right. Maybe we should push and work for more. Why do we want to rise up? Maybe we just want peace and happiness and money doesn’t buy that.. Why is one mindset better than another. Maybe so it can help you be happy and love yourself. You can be more self aware which can help you live a happier life. I should smoke after I finish the Effective Executive but before wayne drops. Then jam to wayne and take a smoke break in between because that is what wayne would have wanted. I care about Trustwork but not fully because I don't even use it. How can you care about something you don't even use. I am very big on self-sufficiency in my life. Maybe one day I will care more about efficiency but for now, I really care about twos. Information. The sharing of information. The recording and organizing of information. I think twos is the best for this. Maybe I am wrong but it is what I believe and care about. . I think I need to push myself harder on twos. There are just so many things that I want to learn and experience. We were talking today about how the ceos of big companies are always crazy. I would agree. Maybe I can be crazy in another way. Or maybe I can play the long game and people will respect that and follow that. We have an entire life to do all the things we want to do and if we use that time well enough, that is enough time to do everything we want and care about. I do really hope I don't die before I have kids and a wife and family. I want to have a Lamborghini because I have always dreamed of that. It pushes me. It is something to work and strive for. Same with the rolex. Same with the $3 billi. They are nice because they are ridiculous goals that make me go ham. Why would I settle for stuff lower than that. Shoot for the moon and you will hit big goals and do great things. I want to be the best version of myself that I can be. To love myself and the entire world. To work hard at whatever it is I really want. To be honest and truthful with other people. To eat healthy and listen and take care of myself. These are all things I want. What do they expect from me. Early october I am out of here. I will put in my two weeks. If they want longer, I will give them longer because they deserve it. Whatever they want and need me to work on, I will not finish until it is done. I also want to come back. Right now, it is just not what I ultimately care about. I have to love myself more, no more touching my eyebrows, no more pulling hair out of my body. It does help me love myself more and make me more presentable but I should be more focused on other things. Like what I am contributing to the world. How I cam living. Why I am living. Many Men came on while I was taking a walk this morning. Magical. The end of that last verse. Fuego. Being full present is the ultimate gift. You can do that when you are really working on something you really care about. I'm going to try to break out of the mold of society. See what that side is like. See what I can learn from there. Stop smoking. Or at least smoke a lot less. More energy. Less coffee. More time. More motivation. Don’t allow negative thoughts to stop you or slow you down. Just do. Stop telling yourself you can’t. You can. Just do. Do more. Build more. Take better care. Believe in yourself more. Be more productive. Do what you know you should and want to do. All about focusing on the breathe. Focusing out conscious and letting out subconscious pop and allow our conscious to recognize it. Focus. Concentration. Relax. Listen. Be okay making no progress for 20 minutes. Just live. Just be. Less food. Less sugar. Less fat. Less nuts. Less stress. Less work. Less unfocused work. More gameplan. More thinking. More strategy. More pushups. More yoga. More stretching. More dance. More reading. More building. More coding. More teaching. More sharing. Less smoking. Less eating. Less appearance. Less eyebrows. More friends. More family. More meditation. More learning. More Japanese. We are capable of anything in the world as long as we can control our minds. Stop your mind wandering and focus on what you are doing. If you are doing something you don't want to be doing, do something else. If you are thinking about something you would rather be doing, do that. It’s not about me. It’s about nature. It’s about the world. Your experience is most important. Are you making it the best you can? How can you make other people’s better?. It’s sort of about us. But it’s more about the world. It’s more about all humans, all creations, everything to come. What do you care about? What do you focus on?. Here’s the trick. Don’t stop feeling great. Keep feeling great. Keep doing the things that make you feel great. Focus exclusively on the breath. That is all there is. The only thing that exists. Cut out all the noise. We are all spirits. We are not our bodies or our minds or our feelings or our emotions. We are Mother Nature. We all are. Any interaction is a meeting of Mother Nature. And any illusions of what we are. We are all humans. We all do and have things but we are not these things. We are separate. We can be aware of these things that happen. We don’t have to react. We don’t have to be tied to our feelings and emotions. We can allow them to pass. We can be unaffected by them.. The pinnacle of meditation is when nothing is happening. You aren’t thinking or worrying or controlling anything. You are just existing. Observing sensations and feelings. You’re not even thinking about not thinking. Your just... existing. We almost never experience this in our daily lives. We are always trying to do something. Thinking about something. Thinking about the next thing we will be doing. Our minds are constantly running and it is hard to stop and do nothing. We try to control so much. Our desires, our actions, other people, other people’s perceptions of us. We need to let go. Let things be. Be okay with how things turn out. Trying to control so many things that are outside of our control and don’t matter causes a lot of stress and worry. Let go. Just be. Just exist. Nothing is bad. It just is. It is what it is. We create the label. It’s about being comfortable with yourself so you can then put yourself in uncomfortable situations. It’s hard to put yourself in uncomfortable situations when you are already uncomfortable with yourself.. I am so uncomfortable being unhealthy and this uncomfort causes a lot of issues. Health is most important. Start doing what is healthy and best for me and the world. Everyone can’t be anything, but they can be the best them. With what they have, what they believe in, who they truly are, not what someone else is telling them. Listen. By all means listen, but process, understand, and decide to include it or not. It is important for you becoming the best you you can be. That is what we are meant to be. We make mistakes, we’re human, but as long as you are doing those things you will be balanced and at peace in the moment and will set yourself up for the most room for potential in the future. Changing, learning, understanding, executing. Listen to the noise. What do you hear? What do you need to do? What do you need to stop? What do you want to do?. I fucking love building Twos. I just need to be calm and share it. Look up drag to select. Look up. Always have twos open. Earned the right to do what I love. It’s a given. We stop ourselves. Is that truly what you want? Or do you want safety and security?. Do you want to be an asshole all day or do you want to be a pleasant person to be around?. My weight and fat is constantly on my mind :/